How I’m doing...

Greetings from Hollywood.

Yep, I said “Hollywood.” I’m returning to Burbank for Saturday night performances of NOT A GENUINE BLACK MAN at The Actors Group Studio. I’ll be there most Saturdays through April. For tickets, click here.

This is my first message since I wrote you about my current bout of depression. I’m overwhelmed by the kindness of people. I’ve received literally hundreds of emails, cards and letters. Most of them strangers who consider me family. People on the street give me hugs.

I’m just in amazement that so many people care. I had no idea.

An elementary school teacher moved me to tears with the Manila envelope she sent me filled with handmade cards of hope created by her 10 year old students. Kids I’ve never met writing and drawing in crayon and felt marker that they are there for me.

Wow.

Everyone wants to know how I’m doing. Truth is, I’m still not in a good place. This is the deepest, darkest bout of depression I’ve ever had. I’m down 10 pounds from lack of appetite (that’s actually a bonus!). I still can’t sleep without medicine. Still struggling to read and write because I can’t concentrate. Still fighting the urge to close my bedroom door and stay in bed with my head under the covers.

I’m not doing that as much though. I am getting my behind up and fulfilling my obligations. I’m doing my scheduled performances, speeches and charity emcee commitments. I’m going back to Burbank. I’m even playing with fire by performing THE WAITING PERIOD tomorrow night at the Marsh. It’s going to be REALLY hard, but it’s sold out and people are there because they are in pain too. I can’t let them down.

I guess the trick I’m using is “fake it til you make it” by doing what I’m supposed to do when I’m supposed to do it even though some days it seems damn near impossible to even stand let alone put one foot in front of the other.

If you’re struggling, I hope you’re doing the same thing. Again, as hard as it is, I’m holding on so, you have to hold on with me.

I’m going to ask you for help with THE WAITING PERIOD. It’s important and it helps people.

The Marsh and I are short in terms of what we need to do it through the year. As I use my struggle to try and help others, will you please click this link and help us however you can?

https://www.gofundme.com/5kp972-help-us-help-people-with-depression

Thank you so much for your prayers and good wishes. I truly don’t know where I’d be without them.

Nevertheless, he persisted.

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